Saturday, April 4, 2009

goodbyes and gratitudes

One of the realities of this ecovillage is that people come and go all the time. We all deal with that in our own ways. It is an experiment for me to practice loving and caring in an unattached way. I dont like saying goodbye. I dont like endings. Like Ive mentioned sometime before...sometimes I avoid beginnings just so I can avoid an ending.
I truly enjoy the presence of everyone who stays at LV with me. I do however, keep a distance sometimes. I dont let my love shine through. It has been so amazing though, when I have made deep connections, even temporary ones. Being in the moment, making connections, and moving on when they move on. Lv keeps on running, new people come and fill the open roles, everything is ok. I get hints of sadness reminiscing sometimes, but, there is usually so much going on, I hardly have time for that.
Sometimes I have huge waves of gratefulness flow through me when I think about the people I live with. I want to bring that gratefulness into the moments I share with my friends. I dont want to be grateful after they leave, a week after a conversation we had, or even hours later when I am replaying our interactions. I want to show love and gratitude in the moment.
Because I DO love and appreciate every one of you. --even if it doesnt seem like it.

C- who brings music to the lodge, and a wisdom that few people have
R-witty sarcasm, abundance of knowledge, observation, and seeing thru the games
R-your honesty about the dark side, hugs, couple skating
M-bringing laughter to PC, humor, mouse help, eggs, food, speaking your truth
P-rituals, honesty, openness, strength, acceptance
D- grounding circles, choosing love, earth hour,
J- yoga, connecting, honesty, notes, speaking up, making things happen
J-keeping it all together, relaxing, sauna, skating, singing, working, maintain the balance
C-getting it all together, perseverance, choosing to stay, trusting me, guidance
M-honesty, performance, laughter, hearing me
N- stillness, hugs, asking for what you want,
D-energy, listening, understanding, feeling
K-dancing, love, drumming, hugs, fun, positive
B-welcoming, massage, advice, support, meringue, dj duo, energy, closeness, gifts, being true to yourself, playfulness, haggard,...

thats only the beginning. We have so many new people and so many who left, I can only list a handful of appreciations of the current people ( and 1 who left awhile ago, you know who you are).
So many people and soooo many lessons to learn.

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