long break

A quick post...
Yes, this has been a long break. over a month.
I had too many things change at once and I am still settling in. I wish I could be settling in. I guess change is a constant, but...really...this much change?!
I have so much I could write, and I havent been writing.
I have so much to say, and I havent been talking.
I have been listening, and loving, and working, and shopping and ...

I have been loving as much as I can that is.

I have been learning alot. I am taking a bunch in. I just wish I could put it into words sometimes...
I could write about the funeral
or
the family brawl
the mediating I did
the silly parts of the roadtrip
my dream about cows and bonnets and covered wagons
my new job
moving because we were kicked out- again
my indecisiveness about moving out of my ex's house
how I feel about potentially living with my Ama only half time
how I feel about my garden being ripped out - again
my ideas for what I am meant to do with my life
my really cool clients
my experiments in unconditional love
nostalgia
fears
loves
or sillyness

but for now
a list is all I can get out
<3