inspiration

No, actually I dont think my problem is about inspiration, or even motivation. I am inspired by the beauty around me and the fun excitement happening. Maybe it is a lack of motivation. Maybe its my overwhelming feeling of being overwhelmed. Maybe its priorities...it has been written in my agenda for at least a week to take care of myself; to do something for myself just for the sake of loving myself and getting me back on track with a positive attitude. I put it off just long enough to where my body physically had to say "enough" and knock me to my feet with gut wrenching pain. "OK". I get it. I need to rest. I need to relax and let go. The mexican lunch will be cooked by someone else. Ama is taken care of. I can relax. I can sleep.
3 hour nap
its ok.
everything is ok.
I did however , miss my last chance to cook with N (AKA something cosmic). He is leaving soon. J is leaving sooner. K is leaving. D is leaving. Am I forgetting anyone? So many people are leaving. People who have been here the whole time I have been here. People who seem to make this place Lost valley. People who are extremely loving and compassionate. People who seem to keep this dimming heart of lv beating....

celebration of love